"you're thinking medium? nah she's at least extra large"
The audience laughed, as it always does whenever I make this sort of self deprecating joke.
It is completely true, I am not a small lady and like lots of others try to diet (twice I have succeeded and twice put it all back on). I have been to weightwatchers, slimming world, tried the Atkins diet, the diet where you starve yourself for two days a week, various others, and while they have all worked to one extent or another I have now come to this conclusion - I am not meant to be thin. I am meant to be me.
Am I happy being fat? Well I guess I'd be better if I was less heavy because I get out of breath. However I know for a fact that obsessing about my size makes me even less happy.
I speak to so many people who are unhappy. Unhappy about their size, unhappy about their looks, unhappy about their accomplishments. Unhappy because they are too tall, or too short, or too flat chested, or too big or even unhappy because they're too good looking! And I know that happiness does not depend on our dress size or anything external. Happiness comes from within, from doing the right thing and from being yourself.
So for now I will continue to be the Extra Large Medium.